Thursday 15 September 2011

Gift from god; is a brother♥

A brother is a gift from god...
The brother who god has
gifted me is Saravanan Sivakumar...

About my Kutti Pandii Vishalini♥

Name:Vishalini
Came into this world on: 22/08/1998
Words can describe her:Lovinqq,Sweet,Awesome,Beautiful,Carinqq,Charminqq,Adorable,and Pretty Sistaa...
Favourite Food:Chicken Rice
Favourite Colour: Black & Pink
Birthday Wishes:Happy Birthdayy my Kutti Pandii Vishalini...May god bless youhh alwayss..Stay pretty,Sweet,Cute and Lovinqq lyke how youhh are alwayss babyma. No matter wad happens i will be alwayss rite beside youhh to guide youhh in the rite path...No matter wad happens no one can ever replace youhh in my heart...Youhh got the key for my heart as well for my happiness youhh got the key...Happy Birthday My Chammak Chello:)) Cant wait to see youhh and celebrate your birthday with all my sweethearts:)) Youhh are nothinqq short of my sight:))













About my Cute and Charminqq Brother Saravanan♥

Name:Saravanan s/o Sivakumar
Came into this world on: 13/09/1999
Words can describe hyme:Lovely,Caring,Sweet,Charmingg,Cute,Adorable and Handsome.
Hys Favourite Word: Banguni Banguni
Favourite Game: Blackshot
Birthday Wishes: Happy Birthday may god bless youhh...My sweet bby boii i will always love youhh...Sorry for the belated message my boii...Dun angry wif me da im sorry abt tad day da...Will never fight wif youhh again my ShayanqqLove...ILoveYouhhMyCharminqqBro♥Wouldnt wanna end this relationship juz here because, I wanna be your sistaa forever babybro...

♥ Will never regret you ♥

Baby it may not be for long that I have known you.
But for some reason it feels like I have known you forever.

 

You are one of the best thing that has ever happened to me.
I never thought I would be head over heels for you.
I don't feel any changes in me.
But everyone around me feels that I am changing.



Maybe this is what happens when you are in love.
I don't know.
Never have I been so in love with anyone.
And baby tell me what have you done?


Every moment spent with you is still not enough.
The moment I leave you, I start to miss you.


I just love the way you are.
Trust me baby, I will never want to leave you.
But baby promise me you won't leave me.

 

The moment you leave me will be the end of me.


Cause baby you are my life.
Everyday I wish that you will be mine forever.
Hopefully the god hears me and you will always be my side.

 

Love you baby and this are just not words.
Every time I say those words randomly, I mean it.
And it comes from within me.

Love you and never will I let you go ♥

♥ Baby you gotta study ♥

Welcoming myself back to my blog.


  I understand that I have made many mistakes in life.
Would sound better if I phrased it as 

Many mistakes in the path towards my education.
Took the wrong part basically =.=



Mistakes are made for us to learn from them.
 Not to be stuck in the mistake.
But why am I stuck and am not being given a second chance.

Or was I given and I let it slip away?


No matter what I should still not give up.
Commitments ( I am afraid of )
But right now I have to persevere and commit.
I have to make sure that I can commit to what I am going to do.


I am all prepared for the future.
Hopefully my plan goes with the flow.
  God make my like colorful !!!



Though many of my decisions turned out to be the total opposite of my expectations,
I still believe in my choices
& this time round I am making sure that the end result is what I want it to be.



Baby you have got to start working hard
& make sure you do your parents proud. 

For all the things they have scarified

& for all the things they have done for you,

You have got to show you appreciate them.

& the only way to make them happy would be 
to do them proud.


♥♥♥



Doing them proud not only satisfy them but gives you a brighter future.
At the end of the day, you have to live with it.
 And for that make sure it is something worth you are living with.  



♥♥♥

♥ Mynaa Mynaa ♥


Mynaa mynaa nenjukulle vambu pannure
Mynaa mynaa enna solla enna kollure
Sollu pulle enna achu sollamaley maraikkadhey
Nenju mele kayya vachu kannalay nee sirikkadhey
Eenna marandhey thalli irunthida thuninjathu sariya sariya
Thannan thaniye enna thavippule erinjathu muraya muraya
Enakkedhum puriyave ille padhil pesa varuviya
Mynaa mynaa


 
Siminikku manneneya pola sithiraikku uchi veyyil pola
Neeyum enakkaga
Uyir vaazhven unakkaga
Sakkarathai pola suthi varum aasai kannu mayya vaangi theetthikiren meesai
Adiye nee manalai thiricha kayiraa
Kodiye nee usirai kadainja thayiraa

Mynaa mynaa nenjukulle vambu pannure
Mynaa mynaa enna solla enna kollure
  
 Katta vandi sellum vazhi theda undivillu jalli kallai theda
Naanum unna thedi
Alainjeney manam vaadi
Pallikkoodam poyum yera villai paadam
Pallan kuzhi aada kooda ille neeyum
Thunayaa nee irundha jeyippen oora
Kanavaa nee kalaincha nenaippan theera
 

Mynaa mynaa nenjukulle vambu pannure
Mynaa mynaa enna solla enna kollure
Sollu pulle enna achu sollamaley maraikkadhey
Nenju mele kayya vachu kannalay nee sirikkadhey
Enna marandhey thalli irunthida thuninjathu sariya sariya
Thannan thaniye enna thavippule erinjathu muraya muraya
Adayalam theriyave ille
Pudusa nee porandhiya
Mynaa mynaa
♥♥♥

♥ Don't want to let go ♥

Special is the word that describes you.
But I don't understand.
Right now I feel like I am after you.
Can't you understand that I am seeking attention from you.

Well you have rejected me once in a very indirect way.
And right now I am just not willing to take another chance.

I know that I am afraid to lose you.
But I am not sure if it is love.
When I hear you talking about this girl and that girl,
I just wish you would say
" But no one matters when you are there. "


A full stop can continue if we were to put another dot beside.
How I wish our story would continue.

I cannot make up my mind.
I understand that it is annoying when someone can't make up their mind.
But you make me think.
Every time something makes me think.

The only person I have ever felt this way towards is you.
I am the one out of mind now.

No matter how much I express,
my feelings are not expressed.
This feeling is just not describable.

Butterflies when I think of our relationship.
Wanting to hear the three words from you.
Wanting to hold you close yet don't want it to happen.


Maybe its a fear.
A voice in me saying don't.
And another voice saying do.
A feeling of something similar might happen.
A feeling that something might go wrong.

I wish I just never had anything with you.
Maybe a guilt in my heart is going to stay forever.

I may say things such as friend more important.
I don't prioritize you.
I would rather be and bla bla bla.



But the truth is if I prioritize my friends,
Lots of things would be different.
I have this bad habit.
I am not like you.
I think about others before myself.
Ya I am selfish to a certain extent.
I think about myself but I would do things for others,
even when it means i have to lose something.

I am trying to change cause like you said,
No use of thinking of others.


But you are not others, are you?
Well maybe in your eyes you are but to mine you are not.

The best part is I am not comfortable enough with anyone to talk about how i really feel.
No one knows what I feel.
I am not expressive enough.

The most I do is cry to myself,
Or just think about and in my heart
and console myself.

How pathetic.
I just don't want to let go.
But if you don't care,
Then I should not care either.
Or maybe should act like I don't care.
To make myself happy at least. 

♥ Current Addiction I'd Say ♥

Current addiction, many I would say.
Love is a better word to describe what I have on the following.
So here goes the list.



I am in love with Music.
Have always had a passion for music.
But I am guessing that passion has grown bigger.
To list down the current songs that I am addicted to 
Is going to take ages.

 
 

I am addicted to or as I mentioned earlier, in love with Heels.
I know I am not a heels person.
I used to not wear heels at all.
But I have always liked heels compared to normal foot-wear.
Since the day I bought my Charles&Keith heels
Gosh I have been looking out for heels.






I am superb in Love with Perfumes.
I just want to get inside any perfume shop and start trying every single one.
Poison is so far one of the best and strongest perfume I have owned.
Best of what I have owned
But I want the best that can be found.
I want something that you will never get bored of.
& I am guessing until I find the perfume
My addiction for perfume is not going to rest.






 I am in love with Nail Polish.
I am seriously falling in love with all the colors.
Even though I know that they are not going to look nice on me,
I just want to own it.
I want to have that color.
I want to have this color.
I want to have all colors.
All the different shades in all the colors.
But I guess I will have to slowly start collecting it.






Did I mention that I am in love with LOVE ?
Love is the most beautiful thing on Earth.
Love is one reason why we humans are still alive.
The love that one have on another makes them care for each other.
In that way they do not want to harm each other.
But why can't people learn how to love 
everyone and everything around them.






Well and lastly I am in Love with this girl called Dhivyah.
In love with myself.
No one can ever be me.
The uniqueness of me.
No words can describe me
&& no one can ever love me like how I love myself.
And if I am ever going to find someone who can love me more than myself,
That is the day I would promise
I will do anything for that person.
Anything I mean anything.
& when I say that the person loves me more than I love myself,
I mean that the person will never tell me to do anything that I don't like.
So I am sure to do anything for the person... 
 


♥ Not the same ♥

Not sure if destiny is to be blamed.
Well basically we are not the same anymore.
The distance between us has been increasing slowly.


 
Now when we compare from start and now,
We will know how much we have grown apart.

I know you in and out and right now
I am not sure if I still know you.


You have other people who are closer and it seems like
You just don't care.


I am trying my best to save this friendship
& the only reason why is cause it means alot to me.

Most of the time I do not mention your name,
Cause you are different,
You are not my friend but more like a sister.



If me not including your name in certain things affected you,
I am sorry.

Well but now you are happy with your own people,
And I am as happy with my group of friends.




But nothing beats what we have.
Now when we are together I hardly have things to talk about.


I am not sure if I can be myself around you anymore.
I see you as a different person when you are with others.
And I see you as a person I know when you are with me.
But I am unsure if the true you is when you are with me or when with them.


I love you and I remember those letters we used to write each other.
The magazine that you did for me.
The things you have done for me.
I cherish every moments I had with you.

I am just scared that I would never get another chance.
Another chance to create new memories.

I do not know if I play an important role in your life.
But you do play a major part.




Trust has been broken.
Love has been destroyed.
Friendship has drifted.
But just remember that no matter what,
I will be there for you.
Anytime anywhere just a call away.






I love you forever baby <3

♥ You know I need you ♥

You have been with me since the day I was brought to this world
We have always been the ideal friends everyone talked about
We fight for the most slightest things
But we make it up to each other and the distance was never felt.



However the time did come when we went to
Secondary school.
But the distance was very little because we still made time for each other
and shared everything
We knew each other in out
and I thought no matter how many people come into my life,
You will be my first priority.




Things were going well even after we graduated from
Secondary school.
But I guess after getting into polytechnic,
we started to slowly drift.
I guess the reason is your newly found friends
and the group you mixed around with.
I never liked them and neither did I like your new character.
I still tried to put up with it cause I still
loved you.
Every time people talk ill about you,
and though I know sometimes the fault lies on you,
I tend to support you and I always did.
I still tried my level best to change you back and
make you realise that your deeds were wrong.



My level best is not enough I guess cause we do not live near and neither do we study together.
But your new found friends surrounded you most of the time and were all around you.
I am super worried but I guess I can't do anything NOW..

Atleast we used to talk about everything but
currently we are not even in proper talking terms.
The reason for my sister and my mother to be angry with you
is different from mine.
I am just disappointed that you ditched my sister and me
for someone you were never closed to.
If you could not make it,
you could have told earlier or
the least you could do was to apologise.
When you came over to make your move on sunday,
maybe you should have started it out more like,
"Hey I am super sorry about that day " or atleast something.


And even before you would have realised
we all would have been back to normal.
I just can't seem to understand the fact of why
you haven't reply or said a sorry to us till now.
If you just do not want to lose face,
I think we have gone too far.
Cause even the most dumbest things,
we used to say sorry.

I guess you think they are more important than
I am to you.



Everyone used to be jealous of our friendship and
they were trying their level best to make us fight.
I guess their jealousy has cast an evil eye on our friendship.
 Well I am just sad or more than that.


I miss you , the old you.
♥ heart broken.


♥ Do I really need you ♥

My life without you makes no difference.
In the beginning,
I sure will miss something.

But that is going to be minor.
I am going to have fun and lead a normal life more than half the time.

Why am I still not letting you go?
Why am I hurting your feelings and mine?
Do I love you?
And if I do, then why is it that I don't want you?

Sometimes it is annoying when you do not know how to express yourself.
People tend to think beyond what it is at times.
It hurts but I would say such stuff if I were in their shoes.

I just do not know what to do!
Gosh save me =(

♥ What about it ♥

To guys I used to have feelings for :

I might have had feelings for you once...
But just accept the fact that it was once upon a time and let it go...
Now I am just being friendly and trying to be close to you as a friend...
So stop imagining unrealistic things...

To people who make up stories :

It is very funny cause I did not know that I love that person...
Until you came up and told me...
I myself did not know that I am not a virgin until you told me...
Don't you have any other better work to do?
Making up stories just drive me to one conclusion...
That is you have nothing else to do and you know me way better than I do...

 To people who think they are famous :

 Just get one fact right...
Being famous does not mean everyone likes you...
Did you just know that your life is more dangerous...
You do not know who are your true friends and who is after you for popularity...
Despite the fact that you have true friends, you lose them out of being paranoid...
So don't be too happy that you are famous and alot of people know you....
Cause you are the one at the losing end...

To people who love talking behind :

Talking at the back does not make you any happier..
It is no wrong if you are just having an opinion about a person...
But it becomes wrong when you are actually befriending the person...
You actually say stuff that is not true and spill out their secrets...
When you actually create your own stories and make the person look bad though they are not...
Making them look like something they are not...
To be truthful, no one has the rights to do so...
If you make up negative things about the president and the word actually spreads...
You can end up in a very bad situation...
Just because the people you talk about has no such powers does not mean you won't be hurt...

There is a thing called the karma... I know not every one is perfect...
But even after knowing that it is wrong, there are people who do it just to have some fun..
Some even do it for some sort of satisfactory feeling...
If you know what you did was wrong and turn over a new leaf, nothing big would harm you...
But for those people who knows it and yet does not repent are the one who will get it back and bigger than what they did...!!!

♥ Simple Thoughts ♥

A child looks up at the sky and spots a flying object...
He just screams out " Bird ! Bird ! "




We realise that most of just look at it as a bird...
Though there are many different types of birds that can be found...
Most birds can fly and that is a fact however Ostrich and Penguins though classified as birds, they can't fly. Every bird has its own unique feature. Basically classified as birds as there are two-legged wingged animals.

When someone mentions about a peacock, everyone would imagine a bird standing there with its colourful feathers open. However only male peacocks has feathers while females do not have them.


 


Even butterflies, mosquitoes, moth and other creatures can fly. But why are they classified under insects. Reasons are that they have well-defined segments and three pairs of leg and two sets of wings. So why does a boy scream the word bird when he sees something flying though birds do not neccessarily fly...




There are so many other examples...
Flowers are considered a category... But in flowers, there are many other categories such as roses, lily, daisies, orchid, sunflower and blah blah blah...
Differences in the categories taking rose as an example.
White roses, yellow roses, pink roses, red roses and blah blah blah...
They have their own meaning such as red roses for love, yellow for friendship and etc...



There are so many differences in so many things in this world... Everything has its unique feature....

Same goes to humans... Every single one is unique in their own way... You might find someone similar in character but never someone exactly the same... Even twins have their differences...




Just like how every advantage has its disadvantages, every positive has its negative... The annoying part is that it is so easy to get used to someones' positivness but not their negativity.




Why do some people act differently according to their surroundings... They might be talking to you like you are their best friend and there is no world without you but when someone else arrives into the picture, they totally change and can just become somebody else...

Some of them act like they know everything... So much of pride in themselves that they tend to look down on the rest... No one is a genuis until he behaves like one... Having pride is not going to bring you anywhere... There are so many people who can be better than them... Just takes time to realise it...




Many turn over a new leaf but why must they actually learn their lesson before changing themselves for the better. Well maybe that is why people say that experience teaches one more than anyone else can... A million people can advice one but it takes a listening ear to hear them... Most of us don't give a listening ear at all... Maybe afterall what goes around comes around makes sense...

Life is just a beautiful melody that many of us are not capable of understanding and making use of it...